My Sweet Journey Girls,
WE MADE IT!!! 40 days of fasting, prayer, spending time in God's Word, memorizing His Word and serving others - I am SO proud of you! My emotions are so mixed this morning as I begin to write to you. I have been praying and spending some time with my precious Savior. I am listening to my praise and worship music and tears are streaming down my cheeks as I think of you. I love you so much! You cannot imagine how much you mean to me. God has placed each of you in my life. Some of you I have only met through this 40 days and some of you have been through so much with me. How wonderful that the LORD would place us together for this journey. You have made my 40th Birthday the best one yet! I was so dreading it and because of you, it has been a blessing. Thank you!
As I was praying about what to share with you on this last day of our journey, God just prompted me to share my heart. The last 2 1/2 years in my family's life has been the most difficult season that I have ever endured. It has been so painful, yet I know that God has been with us. Right before this season started, I had to have a total hysterectomy. To some this may seem like no big deal, but to me it was closure to something that I had prayed for many years. I had desperately wanted another child. I wanted Andrew to have a brother or sister. Tom and I had battled infertility for many years and shared this with very few people. That day, as I was about to enter surgery, I had my tatered scripture index cards that I had prayed for many years in my hands. My heart was sad, but I knew God must have a greater plan. I kept praising Him for giving me Andrew, oh what a blessing! GOD IS FAITHFUL!
Not too long after that, my husband became ill. He battled pneumonia and continued to struggle. Things at our home church were in a difficult season. The enemy had gotten a foothold and was trying to destroy us and our precious congregation. The elders gave my husband a 6 week sabbatical to heal. For the first 3 weeks, he was so sick. He laid in bed and slept a lot. I prayed for God to heal him and to make our path clear to us. We had been called 6 months earlier by another congregation to be their pastor. Our first response was "no." We loved our church and wanted to spend our life and ministry there. We had no desire to leave. After a series of events, and God opening doors, we found ourselves as a crossroads on our journey. GOD IS FAITHFUL!
We begged God to turn things around, to show us what to do, to lead and direct us. Our son was a junior in high school. I had always prayed that the Lord would allow Andrew to be able to have friends, live in a community where he could call home and have a church family that he knew from a young boy until he grew into a young man. I wanted him to be able to graduate from this same community that we had grown to love. Oh, how I loved this church! I had never opened my heart to a group of people like I did to this one. We had been through so much together. We had seen God do a GOD thing like never before! HE was the reason, it had nothing to do with my husband and I, it was all JESUS!! GOD IS FAITHFUL!
One night, we found ourselves in the midst of a horrible meeting. My husband was the one who the enemy was seeking to destroy. My husband is not perfect and neither am I, but what happened that night was not deserved. I watched and prayed as I heard the most hurtful things being said. It was awful. I wish I could erase it from my memory. After that evening, we were so beaten down that we felt we had nothing left. We resigned and moved. I feel as though we went from the fire into an oubliette (place of torture). GOD IS FAITHFUL!
God called us to the desert. We went through an extremely difficult year. I can't even bring myself to write about all that we endured. We received much criticism. I believe the hardest part was the fact that we were unable to grieve the loss of the church family that we loved more than anything. We broke contact with them for this period, so that they would embrace their new pastor and love him as they had loved us. It was the hardest thing ever and was so painful. We felt so alone and so beat down. My husband resigned after one year to be there for his family. It was the bravest thing he has ever done. He sacrificed his career, what others thought of him and finances, all for his family. I love you Tom, more than ever! Thank you for loving us more than the church. Thank you for loving Jesus with all your heart! Thank you for being a man of God's Word and for never compromising your values. Thank you for not watering down God's Word, but standing on truth!! Thank you for being the best husband to me and father to Andrew! I LOVE YOU FOR ALWAYS! GOD IS FAITHFUL!
Andrew graduated from high school and we left him in Southern California at Azusa Pacific University for his freshman year of college. I felt as though my heart was being ripped out of my chest! Oh, how I love my boy and I am so proud of him. Andrew, you cannot imagine how much your Momma loves you!! You have been so gracious through this difficult season of life.You did not turn away from your First Love. Thank you LORD! You are the best son a Mom could ever hope for and you have blessed my heart more than you will ever know. Thank you for loving your parents in spite of our shortcomings! Thank you for being sensitive to the Holy Spirit. Your heart for God is so amazing! You are an awesome man of God! I love you SO much! (ttmab!). GOD IS FAITHFUL!
I know that God has plans to prosper Andrew and not to harm him, plans to give him hope and a future. Andrew had felt his call to ministry right before our move across country. I was so worried that because of all we went through, that he would doubt. I prayed fervently that GOD would continue to clarify His call upon Andrew's life. Sure, there were times of questioning and doubt and we have had many tears together, but PRAISE GOD, He saw Andrew through this desert experience! He has continued to clarify His calling upon Andrew's life! GOD IS FAITHFUL!
As most of you know, in August of last year, we moved to my parents home in Illinois. We lost our savings, had to short sale our home, and felt as though we had lost our church and our friends. We had been in a vast desert, but our GOD had remained faithful. Andrew was able to go to the college that God had called him to and we were able to get a loan for the amount his scholarship did not cover. We have not missed a meal, we have paid every bill and we have our health. Most of all, God has began to restore relationships with those who mean so much to us! Oh, what a mighty GOD we serve! He is wonderful, merciful, gracious and full of love! GOD IS FAITHFUL!
I am not telling you all of this to feel sorry for me or to think I am some kind of martyr. Please hear my heart! I just want you to know where God has brought me and my family. I want to give Him ALL the glory, honor and praise! I am SO blessed! I had been battling depression the days leading up to my 40th birthday. There were times in the desert that I didn't want to get out of bed. I cried all day long. As I poured my heart out to Jesus, he begin to lay this journey upon my heart. Through much prayer and time with Jesus, a Servant Girl's heart began. I prayed for those who would join me on a 40 day journey and God brought you along with me. You have been such a blessing! I hope that this past 40 days has brought you a little encouragement and drawn you closer to JESUS. I love you and thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing this with me.
God has brought amazing healing to my life through this journey with you! HE continues to renew me and make me stronger. I know He has a plan, and even though I still have no idea where our next ministry will be, I know GOD is working. I know HE is real, alive and active in me! HE has a plan and HE desires to prosper us, not to harm us, to give us hope and a future! (Jeremiah 29:11) GOD IS FAITHFUL!
This is the verse the LORD gave to me this morning:
"The LORD your God has blessed you in all the work of your hands. He has watched over your journey through this vast desert. These forty years the LORD your God has been with you, and you have not lacked anything." - Deuteronomy 2:7
PRAISE GOD!! He has blessed me with 40 years of life, and not just any life but an abundant life! He has been my Creator, My Redeemer, My Savior, My Daddy, My Friend, My Healer, My Strength, My Shepherd, My Life Sustainer, My Comforter, My LORD and My King! He is the great I AM! GOD IS FAITHFUL!
Sweet ones, wherever you are at on your journey in life, know that I AM is with you. He cares for you and loves you with an everlasting love. Trust HIM! Completely surrender your life to Jesus and allow Him to lead you. His words are true and faithful. He will make all things new. He did not promise that we would not go through trials in this world, but He did promise never to leave us or forsake us! Praise God when we go through the fire, He is there. When we pass through the waters, they will not overtake us! When we go through the desert, HE provides a way to the promised land! God is faithful! One day, we will join the King and He will take us by the hand and say, "Well done good and faithful servant!" We will see our Father face to face. The One who has had His hand on us throughout our lives, will take our hand in His and bless us with eternal life! Thank you LORD! I love my Savior so much and I just praise Him for His hand upon my life these past 40 years. I love you Jesus with ALL my heart, soul, mind and strength! Praise YOU Father, YOU ARE FAITHFUL!
I would love to know how God has spoken to you throughout these last 40 days! Let me know! Please post in the comments what this journey has meant to you. I would also like to send you a small gift, if I can get your address. You can email me at
eapelt@gmail.com. Please continue to check back with me. I will be posting on Mondays and Thursdays. I will continue to pray for each of you and the Journey Girl prayer closet will always be open. Directions for the "So Long InSecurity" book study will be posted later today. I love my Journey Girls! You are a blessing! Thank you again from the bottom of my heart! Praise GOD who deserves all glory, honor and praise!
Praising Him for a Blessed Journey,
Elisabeth